yoz! once again... finally i have time to blog... feeling dame lousy the whole week cos of certain reasons... suddenly i realise that everyone is not as easy as wat i think!


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:28 AM

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SAT is a bad bad day for me! i hate it... i dislike everything that is happening yesterday...

when i first get to work, i m having headache, very very bad headache... my head feels so heavy... i feel so sick.. then the whole afternoon is so quiet.. n i feel so stress n sad...

then when we starts working... i feel an ulcer in my mouth n my throat feels terrible... suddenly my mood drops down to very low cos i feel so uneasy n helpless... when i teach games i kept bitting onto the ulcer, that is so so so painful... and i dun feel like talking anymore... n till now... i still feel so tire n unhappen...

XXXXXX has gone back to his normal self... n he lied to mi openly thinking that i will not find out... although i got thousand reasons for being unhappy but i really gt nothing to say le... cos i know its helpless...

yesh! still asking myself... did i make that right choice...

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:51 PM

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its about a week since i last blog le... i m feeling tire.. confuse n sad...

had been really busy this few days... n then had been feeling bad n sad...

i dunno how to discribe wat i m thinking now.... yes the thing that happen b4 happen again i guess.. n still think its my fault.. cos i will nv learn ba... feeling very sad cos i m no long the one... however i cannot be too selfish to hold on to it as i know... i might not be doing very well...

still i hope ____ will be blessed with happiness...

my boring life had lead mi no where but unhappiness n lost of things that i would love to treasure... but nvm... i m now working towards my happiness.. n i hope i can do it... yea...

tml is another better day!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 10:44 AM

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i dun feel very well after the talk on fri morning.. i dunno y i feel sad.. n helpless.. it has greatly affected mi as it brings mi back to reality! yes there is always something that ppl choose to hide.. however.. just by a look.. u see through mi!!! i just dunno y some ppl are just so different from the other... its so hard to satisfy and pleased....

maybe like i say... all human beings are the same... onli when they see it theirselves or feel the hurt there then will they understand their mistake n do all the things that can be change... but i guess we all know by then its too late... therefore always tries not to think that everything.. is not possible to happen.. it does...

today i m extremely down.. maybe cos of certain reasons...

1. i came home this morning at 3am.. my mother was still bathing.. then i realise my father not at home... haiz.. then my mum told mi about wat is spoil in the house n all... my father is a failure!!!! the worst thing is... imagine my mum is here.. clearing up all the mess at home after the painting of house... he is happily sleeping with another ger... i am disappointed!

2. i hate ppl who doesnt follow the rules.. or dateline... i had changes... i had to see attitude... i an just a person... not container or the wat bag... i need ppl to respect mi during certain times... n i also need my own time n space...

yesh! some ppl just dunno that they are very forturnate... god are you really fair?????

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:45 PM

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wed is a full day for mi... went for meeting in the morning... oh my.. the meeting is boring i guess.. as feel like sleeping.. ha.. this might be bcos most of the things they talk about.. i m not really involved haha.. oh.. thinking that more of this meeting is coming up... wat can i do?
then i played a few games before i left.. ha the games is so nice.. i mean personally i like it la.. haha also maybe i won haha.. anyway.. yea! i love playing games..

then went back to cafe to do my work.. n yes i gt some of my work done.. and something happen that stunt all of us! haha... i was so scare that things might happen... but still he remain calm.. n well down! a gd point to learn from... must teach alan that too haha... then cos i gt no time to buy a birthday gift... i make one in cafe... then robin send mi over to meet my fren...

we had buffet dinner at HANABI... wwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeee... i saw andel and hui ping.. i quite like that atmosphere that just that its a little warm... but thanks hui ping for giving mi a cosy area... n the birthday cake! haah... we enjoy and yea the food is nice too.. haha.. but too bad gt no my fav food the teppan tori and teppan shake.. haha.. anyways.... had a chat with andel... was now thinking should i go n take n see how? haha.. wat should i do??? haha..

when we parted i am always sad... is like the time we spend together is always short... n i m always thinking wat is he thinking? cos he dun say it out one... when when we chatted on msn.. i feel so much better... n i know he start to express himself more n more... dote on mi more n more.. i know he care! yea...

dun when i can see him again.. ha... miss him (happy belated birthday)

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:53 PM

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ok! here come my entries... haha...

was very busy throughout the weekends cos i m celebrating my BIG day.. haha.. in chalet so not home.. was there on thurss.... yes! mi n wanting n wee kia n alan had a great time playing taboo, cards.. n monkey game.. haha.. then yes! they went home.. left wanting n mi!... we chatted alot before we went to slp.. haha.. its has really been a long long time since i last had this kinda chat with wanting le.. it was nice... n memorable.. ha cos we catch up with each other haha..

then second day.. we went go get breakfast n then went back to chalet n slp.. haha.. boring afternoon.. onli until evening when we meet up the rest then more things n ppl to play.. haha.. n yesh! once again.. we play our favourite game.. with alcohol... n think most of us r a little giddy... n in the end.. wanting n min concas! haha.. they vomited n look very bad.. haha.. but luckly there was those macho guys to help look after them haha...

on the third day... we all r a bit tire le.. some of them slps... some of them chills... some play mahjong... so chit chat... n when my poly fren came.. we play games!!! haha.. at the beginning i was a little tire.. n mood quite down... but later when more ppl arrive... i feel much better.. hehe.. my poly frens played pictionary mania with settlers staff.. haha.. n we(settlers staff) won!!! yeah... luckly.. haha.. then we play mel fav game.. SNORTA.. haha.. so funny... i miss the old days really.. haha then we stop n take pictures... then here comes the funny part..............

wanting they all asked mi to dance in order to get my birthday gift.. haha.. n yes.. i choose shiyuan.. so pai sei.. haha.. but yeah we did it.. haha..the most funny part is my mother really think they mi n shi yuan like each other.. ahha... yea!

then we continue to play mahjong when most of them left... n cindi yirong n mei hui came... yes! we had a good chat! well done!
n my birthday ended.. haha

i gt a bag n slp dress from my poly mates... i like... so nice n class haha.. n a lana cake? haha.. NICE

i gt a floor mat from the settles staff... happy!!! cos i did think of buying it haha...

i gt a box of sweets from yirong they all... n ang bao from sisters n key chain from alan....

N I GOT A nice NECKLACE from my sec sch mates.... haha.. which i gt it with my hard work haha... i love all the present... hehe...

ok enough oh my chalet... haha... then sunday i went back home.. n SLEEP is wat i need... then at night went to my aunty house to hav dinner.. then i came back home to SLEEP.. haha

monday wake up very early to go for meeting.. haha then work full day... so so so tire... today same... n some ppl keep pusing mi to blog.. haha... see busy woman gt time ma wat.... haha... yea! think more n more busy days for mi... haha..

i will survive...

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:29 AM

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