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Friday, September 29, 2006

i went k lunch again!!!!!! haha.. this time i went with doreen... hehe.. we sang many songs.. n i sang songs which i seldom sang or nv sing before one.. hehe.. it was good.. cos relax ma... the food was good too hehe....

then went mabel house to visit AFTEN... hehe he so cute.. when he is playing his mum's bottle.. he gt the naughty face.. haha.. we had a great time there... surprisingly.. aunty judy also went up... hehe so qiao.. we all went.. anyway.. yea.. it was fun haha... erm... thinking how soon will i hav my own one?...hehe

then i went to IMM to get the food for the BBQ... i was early.. i reach there about 6pm.. then went shopping the whole IMM myself.. hehe i bought elise n evan children's day present.. haha.. so nice.. i know they will like it haha.. cos they r lack of that hehe.. n is the time for them to explore!!!! hurry....

HUOGUANG is LATEEEEEEEEE......................... so piss off.... then i so sian la... wat the hell... if both of us also gt no time lei? who is going to buy??? mi n huoguang take untill our hand going to break le la........... furthermore gt to take cab back.... the Q still so long.... but thanks for accompanying mi back all the way if nt i think i dunno wat to do man........ NO HELP AT ALL....

but still.. the shopping trip with huoguang was great haha... we both dunno wat really to get.. how much to get.. n where to get... i keep scolding him.. haha poor boy.. hehe but we so funny.. haha.. esp some moments like... he called his father to ask wat kinda butter we should get cos he say his father says gt some butter eat le will feel very full haha.. yea.. but in the end we took something which we both feel a bit weird haha.. anyway yea.. also when we taking the chicken wings.. i counted n then we agree to take a packet.. then he took a small one.. i wan him to change.. then he say "haiya.. all is 2KG i dun believe they will bluff lor" so loudly to mi lei.. the passerby were like turning back to look at us la.. hehe so paisei but also funny haha.. in the end we agree to take 2 packets cos i believe xinai n i can do it haha... i guess there r alot more.. which i dun think i m saying anyway... wow so expensive lei.. its $100 lei.. which i see lei like nt enough like that.. haha.. i think this chalet is going to cos mi like $50 to $70 like that.... haha but once again.. its once in a life time i guess.. cos its say like 3 or 4 months back lei... haha or even longer if i can rememeber... so ya...

looking forward to it... i m going to bring the monkey game n the payday too yea... haha...
ENJOY.............................

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee just now a xiao qiang saw mi bathing arh.... but i killed it.. cos he doesnt wan to leave n i m alone..... so er xin... sian... i hate it


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:01 AM

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Wednesday, September 27, 2006

today... was a pleasent day.... wanting came to cafe... hehe... although she nt feeling very well.. i also cannot do much to help her.. but ger.. i always love u n be by ur side k.. muack... things was fine.. i gt a feeling that its gonna be busy.. n true enough yes!! it is.. oh my god... n i gt not many chance to tok to wanting.. n she gt to leave...

then a group of ppl came in to film.. they interview mi too haha.. so cool.. yea.. i was nervous lei.. haha first time wow.. but hehe.. so happyy.... hehe.. anyway ya.. nite time was busy.. robin went off.. left the 2 of us... wah... siao.. so busy lei... then a word strike mi.. my mood changes.. n i fall right down... haiz.. y? y u gt to say those things? i did nt do anything wrong did i? y u gt to always say something that hurt mi... n make mi feel that i m worthless.. n no one love mi... y u gt to make mi feel that this place has nothing for mi to stay on le... i m really sad...

yes.. i did closing all by myself.. but i really thanks u for still coming down to work.. i nv blame u at all though just feel tire.. ahah.. cos i realise still gt so so so much to do wow.. but nvm..

the best part!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

when i was topping up drinks... i walk out from the storeroom to the holding area.. suddenly i saw the cans aunty standing behind the glass door.. the back door.. wah shock of my life man.... so scary... i m so............... my heart nearly flew out lei... xia si wo le.. haha.. anyway.. yea.. i did till 11plus.. then took bus home... cool man... the bus so many xiao qiang lei... eeeeeeeeeeeeee i hate taking this kinda bus.. cant the bus uncle be more hygiene.. gosh... but guess i stay gt home save n sound haha...

sorry ppl... guess i should nt be KPO anymore... guess i should just keep my mouth shut...
still feeling lost about the food for BBQ cos that huo guang also dunno how to buy lei sian.... haha...


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 11:15 AM

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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

today.................................... haha so funny......................................

firstly... when i was working.. i tought a couple play turns n taxi.. hehe then after they played awhile.. i heard them like toking very loudly to each other... like quarreling lei haha.. suddenly.. i so worried haha.. a game can become a war.. but luckily everything was fine after all hehe..

secondly.. i went on a bus.. i went right to the end to sit cos i feel a little tire.. then WHO KNOWS... dunno wat even is today.. when i reach SIM there.. so crowded.. so many ppl lei.. then i cannot get down.. WORST thing is i forget wat bus m i in haha.. therefore i decided to stay on... then i cannot get off the bus on time cos i still think i cannot get out... in the end i cant get down.. n then i sit all the way to BP.. then i take LRT home.. sian waste my money haha..

ya.. thirdly.. OMG i going buy food with HOUGUANG... the clown.. the poor him think will get bully by mi ba... haha..anyway i feel so sian... no one can go buy food with mi!!! haha.... but stilll... i quite look forward... to it.. haha still in planning.. hehe...

tire.. tml again long day hehe..


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:48 AM

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Monday, September 25, 2006

yea... i had fun today!!! haha once again.. its a relaxing day for mi... a day fill with joy...

although i m very tire... also my throat is hurting.. my voice change.. gt a bit of cough.. cos of the loss of slp during the weekends and the non stop toking.. HOWEVER i nv stop my FUN plans for today.. hehe..

i went Kbox again.. hehe.. with MINGSI the dearest little ger which i had nt seen for weeks.. n of cos i miss her haha... also with YEE WEI.. my twins.. haha.. anyway.. think we talk more then we sings today... i guess cos all three of us r quite tire.. therefore were like a little stone.. haha.. yea.. haha.. this time round... we make a sad song becomes a funny one.. & ..................... yee wei make mi CRY... oh my god.. the wat song MTV so touching lei... the story so sad... plus yee wei sad voice... tears rolled down lei.. i wan to learn that song... i love it haha... also... the mo qi between mi n mingsi in singing the liang jin ru song gets better le.. haha.. we can bland into each other better haha... BUT this time round.. is mi n wei wei lei... we sang the shan hu hai... oh no.. cannot make it lei... must continue to train haha.. izzit bcos of mi? i think my singing sucks... hehe.. anyway the food is nt bad.. n we also sang deng yi jun song... haha.. my fav. ni ze meh shuo!!!! hehe with that we ended out k box session n headed our own way...

remember i bought crayons for elise? hehe i went up.. yea man.. i love them so cute.. n i love kids haha although they look like monsters haha... their mother told mi they will be slping however they r awake.. haha instead their mother is the one... haha.. but true enough they just woke up.. haha maybe they know i going hehe..
i m so happy n surprise that evan ask mi to play toys with him.. also he call mi yi yi many times.. although i still think i m young.. haha (call mi at home can outside must change?) haha... he also tie hair for mi.. haha.. hug mi n listen to mi.. when i tok to him.. last time he use to be scare of mi.. haha cos i very fierce in the family when he still stay with mi.. now he wan to come n stay with mi wow.. haha..
coming to elise.. wow.. she even better.. she can tok non stop for 10 minutes lei.. n then more n more like aunty wow... nag n nag.. hehe.. she look more like housewife then my sister haha.. also she is so clever n great.. she know how to say 1 to 10 in 4 different languages... chinese, english, malay n cantonese.. also she CUT her hair.. haha so cute.. i love it although nt very nice haha..
still... these who ppl cannot put together.. they fight ... bite n put hair.. haha so scary.. n they can nv keep quite for more then 15 minutes.. haha.. yeah!!! i had fun too... they bring all my worries n stress away..

headed home.. feeling tire haha.. watch the bao siao somthing one.. nt funny at all.. sian haha.. maybe i m too tire to laugh le haha.. yup... way to go.. yea...


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:55 AM

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Sunday, September 24, 2006

today is such a busy day... n i feel so so so bad... sorry gers...

firstly i gt to work 15min late.. cos of the research... i slp onli like.. 2.5hrs la... i slp at 530 then woke up at 8 to do print.. then i dose off for like 30 min n i was LATE...

BEST is i m working alone.. no shift 1a ppl... nvm when shan shan came in.. i gt the news of elbie nt coming to work cos she is in hospital.. then was like having event upstairs.. then so call full down stairs... haiz.. the worst part is my project mates came but i was unable to join in the discussion.. feel so sad n bad.. n when i was finally there.. they had aready decide on the topic... reefwalk for children... yea... gt to do new research again... i feel so lousy.. like did nothing.. likr so useless.. haiz... anyways.. mabel is there to work with mi!!! but i dun feel as happy dough...

i hated this kinda situation of ppl nt turning to work last min cos they cant find replacment... yea.. so m i suppose to do that too??? i was so so so tire to work on.. n that daniel.. wonderful.. yes ask!!!!! but i guess.. i din respone well to him ba... luckly i gt henry... if nt i think i will DIE man...

yea... think will go smoothly b4 the break out? yea i guess so... did my best le..


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:22 AM

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Saturday, September 23, 2006

till now... dunno.. maybe is all the things n ppl around.. i feel abit sick of work le... a day full of sorrow.. n tears... a day full of hates n stress... i declare i hav lost!!!!!!!!!!!! to the battle i wanna to fight for when i came back............

to start off the day.. i feel a little lousy.. cos my mum was like nagging at mi !!! n my sister saying i nt siao shun.. cos i go work instead of joining them... i drag myself to work!!! thinking that its another stressful week!!! cos i m with new staff... n worst.. short of staff...

half way through i recieve a sms with cause mi to break down.. n tears rolled down... wat did she expect mi to reply? wat did she expect mi to say? when things had been settle n done... y do i always hav to face this kinda of things.. n yet smile at this things...

when i reach cafe... the fear in mi came... i fear sat.... esp sat.... n this cause the battle to lose ba.. i guess.. ya i guess.. wat someone say might be true... i guess i cant change the fate ba.. :) then i saw the reservations... i totally turn off... yea... ur wan revenue rite.. i will give it to u.. who care the customers gt gd service? yea man...

but anyways... XINAI n HUOGUANG came for supper with mi!!! yea... i love u all... love the memories... love the way we r in the pass...

tire le... nite ppl... oh its a nv slp sunday again.. haha..


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 1:22 PM

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Friday, September 22, 2006

wow.. today is the best day in my holiday still haha.. went to jurong Point to meet yi rong, mei hui, n cindi.. haha.. so fun lei.. as usual we chatted n we laugh.. this outing is a gathering for us.. after the meal at that india restuarant... n is also a mini celebration for yi rong.. yea!!







(yi rong see i make u slimmer haha)

first we went PIZZA HUT to eat!! haha so nice.. yea.. then we laugh like no body business.. the table of guys beside us.. keep looking at us.. r we pretty? or too noisy? haha who cares.. haha
then we ask the waitress to bring out the cake.. OMG to our surprise.. they off all the lights n sing us the birthday song.. hehe so pei sai n also so memorable haha..








(that's the birthday cake i bought for her!!!!) haha

then we actually wanted to go library to search for books!!! but how nice ar.. they closed early for staff event.. therefore we went to nearby park to chat.. n play wat that call? fire... dunno haha.. anyway yea so fun.. but guess we disturb all the couples there haha.. anyways.. yea








(Do we look like fairy? haha)


THEN we went to TOYRUS!! i bought crayons for elise n evan.. also i bought a monkey game!!!!!!!!!! hehe.. nv really played b4 but i think its interesting.. will bring to cafe to play... yea.. haha really a tire but very very FUN day haha..

oh.. my life still goes on with work n research haha.. BUT looking forward to the chalet on 2 n 3 of oct and the gaming with xinai in cafe soon!!!! haha.. yea... muack.. thanks ger for giving mi a wonderful day...


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:53 AM

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Thursday, September 21, 2006

unexplainable sadness hit mi at about 6pm today.. reason being? cos i off work late the last sunday.. cause mi to miss the family gathering which i m so looking forward to.. he gave mi hope.. n he trash it again.. haiz.. this time i failed to attend too i guess.. it on SAT a day which i guess there is no way i could hav other programme then WORK.. haha..

went meeting straight after work today.. was a bit rush but i m nt the latest still haha.. anyway.. yea.. thanks so much gers for all the way to the west.. also on sun thanks so much for coming all the way to settlers just bcos i cant get away from WORK.. yes.. i love u all for ur understanding.. i will try by best to do up all the research okok.. muack.. yea..

suddenly.. all the toughts came into my mind.. yesh... y m i putting all my time n effort on this.. where is my social life? my own time with sisters? n frens? i guess i m losing all of them... however wat i gt r all the blames n bad remarks from them.. like do so much.. for? they giving u shares ar? y u so stupid.. etc............................................................. still i dun understand.. izzit wrong to be faithful? izzit wrong to be loyal n to do my best or help in every single thing?

wat r right n wrong then?

do only pretty n handsome people get appreciated?
do rich ppl get more frens?
do stupid ppl get bully?
clever ppl get all the gd stuff?
ppl with gd skills ALWAYS get a bigger share?

do christain get more advantages? if yes.. then i also wanna be..

ANYWAYS.... i try my best to keep things safely in the box.. i will hold it tight... n will nt open it..


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:59 AM

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

had been sick.. tue was a terrible day... wake up feel so tire.. head heavier then body.. so did nt went to work.. hoping its nt that bad? i guess so too.. haha.. anyway.. ya slept for the whole day.. then went to see doctor cos really cannot take it anymore.. but i m almost fine now i guess.. onli like might feel a little breathless when running up n down.. haha..

today!!! wed was a big big day.. haha.. is a BIG event wow.. with many many guys... haha but too bad.. like they does suit my type lei.. haha but still i had a great time with them.. i think they too haha... wah a game of crainum can kill my voice man... opps.. let mi tell ur something.. its always true.. everyone is a kid... even a 60 yr old man is also.. haha.. how do u define? hehe once u give a child or kid something.. they start playing even without listening to u.. haha.. ok erm................. coming back.. yeah... although i m quite tire n drain out.. but i like it!!!! haha..

hehe yee wei came down to play game.. but we din really play... instead that waiyin n yee wei.. so enthu. lei... they invite customers to play games with them!!! play wat? HALLI GALLI, JUNGLE SPEED and SLAMWICH haha.. they really ar.. but still customers were laughing away.. i think they made new fren??? haah...

no chance to show my AH GU power lei.. cos working then still tot to nite will be quiet? in the end table do come in.. one by one.. at about 830.... hehe.. still ya.. COME CHALLENG mi FIVE STONES ba.. haha.. (sob.. no one wanna play with mi!!!) AH GU waiting for u all lei haha....

hey... looking forward to a staff nite lei.. gt too many games to play lei... a staff nite to over nite at cafe i also happy lei... sian lei no one wanna go cafe play games with mi!!!!!!!!! everything come n play when i working.. make mi sad ahah.. yea baby yea baby come come.. AH GU wanna become more ang moh !!! haha.. everything must add a yea baby.. thanks dear... haha....

ok... nite


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 10:12 AM

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Sunday, September 17, 2006

SETTLERS CAFE now hav FIVE STONES... haha my fav lei.. hehe was made by wai yin... haha.. i love it wow.. had been playing with it haha.. so fun.. hai ya.. yet to find a challenger lei haha.. anyway thanks ger...

HOWEVER..................................................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this week end is seriously nt my week... gt sick cos of the rain on fri i guess.. gt flu.. then sat work 14 hours lei.. afternoon was so quite.. BUT wah that nite... was like having a war la.. but still... we all went through the hard time together on sat... although we had 3 new staff... they all r quite gd.. n we hav.. teamwork i guess haha... we hit the target..yea.. good job gers.. hehe.. we r all sooo tire..

i over slept... oh no.. was too tire.. once i work up.. was throwing my temper... also cos i m sick le.. therefore..when i reach cafe, i was late.. n then!!!!! a bad day starts... cos nt feeling well... n nv slept well too.. everthing is like never do well.. so angry lei... then realise aunty also unhappy... the whole place is so tense up.. then daniel came.. realising that he onli start work at 3.. he complain all the way to robin!!! haha... anyways... he really gek mi alot lor.. poor him.. but who ask him...

the old building is giving us problem... haha if robin nv come in the afternoon... with mi being the in charge i also dunno wat to do.. the water licking... toilet no light... realising no more toilet paper.. haha.. really arr... problems keep araise.. n i had difficulties in breathing cos gt nose block.. then running up n down making mi feel more sick... but thank god.. we pull through once again...

happy news... i saw a male customers playing the five stones haha.. so cute n funny... too bad no cam if nt can take it down for the photo contest haha...

yea thats my day... jia you.. cos life is short...


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:07 AM

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Friday, September 15, 2006

today is just another sickening day... haha... had been raining the whole day la.. yet i had to go back to school.. haha but still.. nt to bad cos ultimately, i gt a free lunch.. n i MET wanting haha... so QIAO wow... i board the bus 67 which wanting was on too.. hehe but i nv see her till she sms mi haha... so paisei.. but still... we chatted all the way till we reach sch haha.. although we din get to go party world.. but we spent quality time together haha... muack.. miss u babe..

then i met cindi.. hehe.. she treated mi to LUNCH haha.. din know canteen 1 jap food gt so nice... i m going to eat it again next sem. haha..!!!!! yesh! next sem... that mean??? i pass my exam... hurry hurry... although nt very gd.. but yea i m promoted haha.. last 6 months! here i come.. (",)

then i went home.. wah so so so tire lei.. yet i cant slp... hehe.. FRIDAY.. haiz.. due to mi working on sat n sun... i gt to stay at home to rest on fri when everyone is out to play!!! haiz.. that shows my boring life... haiz.. i also wanna go out n play... but still.. i guess i need rest ba.. hehe

was toking to a fren.. he kept toking to mi about his 10 yrs together gf.. keep telling mi.. how much he love her, he had done for her, wat had they gone through together... so jealous lei.. make mi think of my LOVE life... haiz... like dun hav wow.. haha.. that y boring? haha dunno.. anyway.. ya they r getting married soon.. so happy for them..
he lead mi to think wat i actually want in life.. yea... what i wanna do in life.. n wat r my world all about.. where r all my love ones.. ??? i guess.. till now i can onli say my life is all about sch n work... others? cannot think of.. isit boring?

i always say i wanna go beach walk walk with my bf.. but it nv happen... i wanna watch sun rise... so romantic.. but.. either cannot wake up in time.. if nt he is nv there.. i wanna spend quality time together.. listening to each other.. but i had nv done that.. then wat all my pass relationship all about??? haha i dunno too... that lead mi back to.. wat i m looking for here.. just a company? or someone that will walk with mi till the last breathe we take.. ?

that also bring mi to... y m i working so hard? money? hahaz.. i really puzzle.. chinese they gt this phrase.. the king is nt worried, y is the maid so panic.. yea through.. if the person in charge can leave things aside ... y r the crew.. worrying? anyway... many opportunities out there ya... no one can read each other mind nor heart... u can nv tell how true that person is.. cos the one who can kill u is always the the person nearest to u.. yea?

ok gota rest le... yea i m puzzled..


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:58 AM

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Wednesday, September 13, 2006

hehehehe.... so far... i could onli say... the anger in me had gone.. n once again i m back...

monday i met out with my poly group mates to discuss project... so fun... haha we chatted... oh i miss all of them.. esp HP... hehe.. really long since i last see them... THEN shocking news.. at least to mi it is... my result is coming out tis fri!!!! oh my god... haha.. trying hard nt to think so i will nt be so nervous hehe..

anyway ya... then coming to working days again.. yeah! seeing him really make mi sick.. but wat can i do? there is nothing for mi to hide or so... i had nothing much more to talk about with him... nt even saying hi or bye i guess...

haiz.. but guess i fail.. haha.. cos today.. we PLAY games!!!! TURNS N TAXIs.. so so so fun i like that game tough.. haha.. n yeash.... my angel won le... :)

no longer angry... no longer hate.. BUT still DUN EVER step onto my tail again... opps.. hehe i nt animal k haha..

gtg miss ya much.... guess i might be hurt again... its nv ending tough...


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:36 AM

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE NONSENSE LE!!!!!!!! here i m trying hard!!! but where r all of u? since ur r so gd.. so expert then wat the point of asking mi to hold this games nite! i had enough le... i m nt going to hold back anything now... if u ppl r unhappy or so... say la.. take away my link from this t00tb blog la... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

which human being will nt feel tire? which human being do not hav feelings? which human being always try to spare a tot for the others? YES ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! i m one of them.. however i m feeling tire now... mt feelings is losing faith n i m getting more n more selfish le! cos i dun see y nt!

hasnt been feeling unwell, but can i take off on sat? can i say i dun wanna work on sun? i been feeling dame tire.. my whole body aching.. n i m feeling dame nt rite inside... some more working with most new staff.. n some is trying to be funny!!!! my heart is hurting n my tears is rolling.. i felt a fall in life.. with problems at home.. n now.. i m full too full till i lost my sense n lost my function n way in life...

Y? i m huant by ppl from CH!!! first is JACE thenHIS FREN after is Robin now is DANIEL... still bring more in? i m nt here to let u get into my way!

1. (jace) doing all sort of nonsense.. thinking he is the boss... driving mi to the peak...
2. (robin) STOP saying mi fat when u r nt very slim too.. if u wanna say! say it in front of mi! dont do it at ppls back!!! then i send email out about the games nite is nt to tell u then u dun need to come take over mi wow... i m nt suppose to work at nite one u know... worst thing is ... u nv even call us to let us know u nt coming .. u think wat... i m really superwoman ar... u ruin my plans for all the new staff.. gt my programme for them today.. it all bcos of u! i din carry out a single one of them... u know how sad m i? u know how disappointed m i when i had to work throughout with out helping them much? then wat the point of having this? all u care is onli MONEY.... loser!
3. (daniel) trying to be funny... my asking mi stupid questions at the wrong time! try harder next time ba... dun ever do it again when i m unwell n tire...

bad impression! FAILED... although i m nt as gd... but at least i tried! OH YA! that JACE stop telling my new staff that coffee is to put coffee first!!! i will make u embrasses in front of everyone one ar.... then the games rack! no one is arranging except for mi! or mike n MAYBE some others...

really disappointed.. really sad.. cos was working till i couldnt get to follow up the game session.. dun even know wat had happen.. or the progress.. so piss....

NOT GOING TO WORK ON SUNDAYS NITE ANYMORE... better come in at 630 to take over!!!! :(

nt smiling anymore


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:39 AM

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Thursday, September 07, 2006

hey ppl.. it had been a long long time since i last blog yea... cos i need to sort out some feelings and thoughts... sorry for those who r worried for mi.. i m fine le... thanks all for the continuing support..

i rememeber once my cousin told mi.. GOD is always fair... if you hav something.. most likely u will hav short of something on the other hand... however.. he is onli fair to his ppl? he is onli communicate with his ppl? he is onli there for his ppl? wat about the others then... do we hav a GOD in our heart then? i do... the reason y i becomes so cheerful n treating things easily is because.. i believe in him too actually... dun be surprise... although i haven commit myself in!!! but... i believe in that line "GOD IS FAIR".... however i realise this faith is losing in mi... i realise it might nt be true anymore.. and its so nt fair to ME... izzit just bcos i nv tok to him? nv pray to him?

but now... watever he say will nt affect mi anymore.. bcos things r over... i m leading my own life my own way... hav ur heard of the story the boy who cried wolf? i will nv forget this story bcos... i once experience it b4... and therefore.. i hated myself for doing it... n now.. i hated ppl who do that too... esp to children.. nv make empty promises... dun make urself regret like mi!!!!

... 1. m i doing more then i m supposed to? 2. did i think of myself first?
3. wat benefits do i get if i were to do this? 4. m i treated fairly? <-------- this is the note which i hated to follow bcos its all include money n gd payback... then where is the love n loyalty? the leadership course through i remember something very clearly is that motivation in a persons job is nt onli money... it also comprise of achievements, n positive reinforcement like thank you, well done and all... so wat is short to continue to motivate mi then? get an ans?................. was reading one of my fren blog... haha wow.. many many admirers... wat about mi? NONE... haiz.. i was so confused now.. izzit that it came back? or i had nv let go of it? i need someone to dote mi... showered mi with love... so do i just accept anyone that comes? haha... maybe its time to give a change cos i m too tire to move on alone le... where r u.. come to mi now.. yes u MR RITE...

some annoy news in my family is pass over to mi again.. that woman.. say that we keep spending money.. nv say up... dun blame me for doing this i nv done.. that nt very nice tough.. so now.. i wanna earn more so that i can SUPPORT myself happy u.... btw its her that cause mi to hav a broken family.. n that the fact...

miss u wow... n restless


+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:41 AM

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