had been very very busy recently with my projects.... wah.. so many things to do.. so many research... oh no.. think i really will be very stress up this sem le... quiz coming all the way.... projects too... oh no... where to find time to relax...........................

the major project IEP is killing mi... is draining all my energy le.... oh...................... is there a need for mi to stop working? haiz............. just feel that i gt no no no enough time to do anything... wah... sick man...

similarly... many things happen... y do u gt to show it so obvious? y do u make mi sad? y do u onli care and follow wat they say? wat m i to u? izzit i m independent to go into the outside world all by myself???

yes! u did it.... finally after so many times of arguements.. n persistance... thanks dear... u did it.. haha i m really happy to see that today... i hope u will keep up the gd work haha.. missing .........
still in a confusion... however my feelings like... are clearer n clearer le.. but wat m i doing now? too stress? haha..................... "I don t wanna do this anymore...I don t wanna be the reason why...Everytime I walk out the door...I see him die a little more inside...I don t wanna hurt him anymore...I don t wanna take away his life...I don t wanna be...a murderer" guess this is wat i m feeling rite now ba.........

call mi instead of smsing mi... unless u just wanna leave a message for mi!!!!!! thanks

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:17 AM

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this week is a busy one for mi.. haha.. cos gt to sch.. do projects and work... although i m tire.. but i feel like time fly pass real fast wow... in a splite second.. one week had pass le... NOV is coming n towards my gradulation is onli..... dec Jan Feb... three more months wow.. haha.. fast? yea man... still dun really know wat i really wan when i gradulate lei... was lost...

haiyo... my life is really boring lei.. compare to others haa.. but still at least i could make myself happy by laughing at things that might seems funny to mi.. but nt others... cos i m just merely studying n working... how much more boring can it still go?? haha....

yesh.. i agree to a certain extend that xxxxxxx should nt ..............................(my own thought) however since i had choose to let go n ignore... just trying to pass my following months... i shall nt say much... just hope that it dont happen again or do it in front of mi....

i had been in a stand where by i dunno wat to do now... somethings which i tot i had put down.. n it came back... something i tot it will nv happen! oh yes it happened!.... i m really lost.. really dunno wat is my next step cos... things just seem so hard to choose..... but i promised myself that i stand strong with my stand and i will nt CHANGE...

oh no...... projects projects killing mi!!!!! so hard... i realise some of the thing i m studying now i dun even understand la.... haiz... does it shows that i m nt a leader? does it shows that.... i m finish ? haha...............................................................................................
muack..... miss u babes.....

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:40 AM

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today is a long long day... wah morning lessons i just cannot focus n kept feeling like slping!!! oh my gosh.. think i nv absorb anything ba.. haha.. then went sengkang!!! :A whole new world" haha so different.. everything like seems so so so alike la.. haha it was so hot... so tiring.. but still we walked round.. haha..yea i was great.. when we started shopping in compass point.. after the walk... we ate burger KING... haha.. so nice... then mi n hui ping proceed to work... we took the bus 156.. haha the journey was long.. trust mi.. but we dun feel it at all cos i slp like the whole journey haha.. so nice.. but still feel so tire...

when i reached cafe... to my horry.... i see no one but suin yung darelene n uncle.. haha.. but ok la.. things was ok.. at nite was nt bad la.. hehe..

wondering m i still in love? wondering... how much i had love him... does i really feel hurt? or all along my heart is nt even there? guess all the wonders.. will nv had an ans.. but!!!! yesh.. i m recovering.. i know u there...

OH YA!!! so sad din get to see that eurasian.... haha.. but heard from robin.. he like my type lei haha.. ok la.. nt thinking le..

great day great feelings.. haha

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:50 AM

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sad sad sad is wat i can say now........... i tot my life will change... i tot i can do it....... but once again............ i failed!!!!!!!!!! is my life always going to be so bitter like wat the aunty says? my life is getting from bad to worst.........

i lose my sense of love? or sense of feelings.......... keeping myself busy is wat i can do now once again!!!!!!!!!!!

fallen.. n hurt

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 12:13 PM

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today is sunday... i m going out.... a long long day of waiting.. with excited feelings..

was happy today.. also excited n feeling so funny n a little lost cos tml sch STARTS haha.. in the end.. we nv meet up... he nv call or sms mi after a sms saying he is still in camp.........................

felt disappointed? felt unhappy?

i dunno so comfuse... i must falling in.... i must control... if nt i will be hurt... BADLY i think...
oh.. where is he? what he is doing? will he even sms mi? haiz...

going to bed... going to slp... trying nt to think!!! yea...... NGEE ANN POLY here i come...........

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:36 AM

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Wwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i went shopping today!!!!!!! haha.. i bought many many things lei.. so happy.. its a complimentry gift for myself b4 sch start... hehe..

quarrel with na na (MY SISTER) bcos i delay the going out time.. but still we went.. .....
FAR EAST is our first desination... then we went to had our breakfast cum lunch at 4 level.. the very nice store.. i had the jimba mee haha.. it was great hehe.. then we went to midlady.. tot hoe nice will the clothes be.. but haiz.. gt nothing there.. however all the anger cos the sales ger like i own her money like that.. come on la.. all the customers come in n left without buying.. haha.. sick.. i can do so much better la.. YES customers service haha.. then cos realise nothing much to shop there..

we then went to bugis.. erm the dorothy perkins.. hehe yes i bought quite a few top from there.. hehe.. but all like almost the same haha.. anyway yes i like.. hehe.. then went to bugis street... went to buy a bag.. wow 50 bucks lei.. cos its say to be life time garantee.. whole world only gt 6.. and its own design yea.... hehe... yea i bought it!!!!! LAST PIECE.. hehe..

lastly.. went to Tiong baru plaza.. YORK.. yes my shop.. i gt the rest of my clothes there.. yea.. so nice.. i like haha.. wow i did a good deed today hehe.. a gt a top n it was the last piece.. then another ger also saw it.. she wanted it for depavali.. therefore she cant wait.. therefore i offer to give her that piece first and wait for mine.. which will be a week later.. hehe.. feel so happy to help.. I LOVE TO HELP HEHE...

then we had long join for dinner.. yea and........... i saw the couple which i give the top to hehe.... then we went home after shopping the supermarket!!!! i tiring day.. hehe but.. so happy.. i feel loved!!! once again hehe

i m afraid of being hurt by love again.. izzit the reason y i choose nt to be too committed?

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:58 AM

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i enjoyed myself fully before sch starts haha!!! yea.. well done.. i love the feeling being love.. being care.. n being appreciated.. i also love the feeling when mi n my sisters are happily spending time together.. bcos all this memories does nt come easily hehe.... yea i did it today.....

i went to chevrons chalet beside the IMM.. my brother in law book a chalet there.. there a day of laughter n fun starts...

when we reach there.. we went to the food court to eat our breakfast.. hehe the place is full of ppl of different races.. n then we bought chicken rice.. the uncle gives us an extra portions.. wow.. dunno issit cos see we pretty lei haha.. anyway ya but it cos $9 lei.. like still quite expensive hehe.. ok we had out food.. it taste nt bad tough.. after the food.. due to no exercise after meal time.. we cant SWIM.. therefore we went bowling!!!!!!!!!!!! yes bowling.. haha so fun.. all three of us dun really know how to bowl.. therefore my sister requested to hav a lane at the quite corner.. but still nv cos both corners are occupied.. hha.. then we started bowling.. hehe.. washing the drain is wat we do most of the time haha... but still so FUN..

then we went swimming.. hehe.. we saw the deep end is 1.5.. then we was like.. haiyo how deep can it be haha.. but then when we went down haha.. wow.. it reaches my nose k.. ahha yea.. i feel so relax in the water.. so comfortable.. i love swimming.. i love to be in the water.. i m a SEA ANIMAL haha..... then we chatted.. we play n we sing in the pool haha..

then we went to the aracde... a bit lousy cos like many thing spoil.. haha but still we had a great time hitting the machine and shooting birds.. haha.. then played mahjong in the room.. wow it has been a really long time since i last play it le.. haha.. while watching for the KFC to come.. we play for a few rounds.. my younger sister keep winning lei.. but after the meal... we continue.. the luck changes.. hahahahaha i won.. hehe in the end i won $6 lei haha.. my sister say i always hav mahjong luck.. too bad i dun play those real game one.. but then.. think back thats the point.. maybe thats where all my luck comes from haha... nt being a greedy person.. who gamble.. hehe..

at 830pm.. we headed home.. i feel so tire after a day of fun.. but all the moments still runs in my mind.. yea ppl next time we will hav out chalet there instead haha... so nice.. wow!!!!!!!

m i in love?

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:05 AM

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it had been a week since i last blog le... cos my mood was nt very gd though.. therefore.. i m too confuse to do anything le....

but anyway... toking about the happy times.. hehe.. saw elise n evan on fri for the moon cake festiva.. their lanten so cute.. i had a great time.. teaching elise how to play the toy i bought for her for children's day... hehe evan was busy eating mooncake wow.. haha.. he is nv stop eating one.. haha.. but then later.. their ah gong brought them to chinese garden.. n i stayed alone at home.. watching my you tude.. ai sha17...

on sat.. i went to yee wei's hse to make cake for my beloved MOTHER its her birthday!!!!! ... to learn from his brother.. haha so funny.. we all chatted.. then in the end? his brother make the cake n i watched!! hehe but i did do a little la.. hehe.. gt the heart can le.. hehe.. then we all went to eat DINNER and then headed back home to cut the cake.. hehe so funny lei.. the cake dunno y very hard.. haha they all laugh.. n then also very hard to eat.. my sister all ask izzit a toy haha.. but anyway yea it taste gd though.. ahah thanks so much to him wow... a happy family.. yea.. MUMMY i LOVE u....

then on monday... yea i went for dinner with wanting n xia.. although onli 3 of us.. we still enjoy ourselves.. we went to eat my fav place.. haha LET'S EAT.. then we went k box... it was so fun!!!! i love singing.. wahahaa.... guess wat.. xia say mi n wanting's face shape look more n more alike lei.. haha dunno is gd or bad.. later scarlly few years down the road we become twins haha.. anyway we r BEST sisters ma.. so its ok to look alike i think haha..

ON ANOTHER HAND...................................

i heard ppl blaming one another, hearing ppl being so fake, knew that i m stupid, sense that i m unappreciated... knowing i no longer needed... i m no longer being love.. no longer being needed???? izzit true? how can i differentiate wat r true words n wat r lies coming out from somebody mouth? how can i see through their mask!!!!!

however...............

my school starting le.. no more worries .. back to my life my studying ba... i m tire to move on le.. i need to slow down a little for now.. who can help???

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:22 AM

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i m nt going to think or say anything about the bad weekends i had... cos i wanna ignore n forget... anyway.. yea.. its the worst of all man....

yesterday... went chalet!!!!!!!!! wow... haha.. was really fun.. hehe... i almost laugh through the entire 2 days.... cos of some funny ppl.... i m drank too haha... but still i manage to pull through... we all spent our time very wisely.. haha.. actually nothing much to say.. cos it all in my heart haha... but i gt photos to share haha....

enjoy....................................................
















hey this ger is trying to be funny behind the curtain?







+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:37 AM

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