another boring day... a day of onli sadness...

so fast August is over le.. sept is coming.. my tireness is coming too.. i had tons of things to say, have tons of ???? but who the hell can i trust to tell or asked? i feel so helpless cos i cant help myself..

u came... when i saw u.. my heart sank.. cos we once fight through the tough period together.. guess u know my feeling best... sorry if i make u sad too.. but.. i guess i really someone to tok to.. or rather to listen to mi... cos i m also just a normal human.. n thanks..

i m afraid.. afraid of losing myself.. afraid of losing the things i m holding onto now... i needed someone to be there... i can see it coming nearer n clearer but wat can i do? i m losing u..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:40 AM

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oh oh oh... the tuesday is such a boring day man... haiz.. i did hit target.. is stressing mi.. making me feel depressed... think cos its mi that y customers nt coming in wow.. haiz.. anyway.. ya i fail in wat i m supposed to do.. conclusion? useless?

today wow.. hehe a new fren is joining us... erm ya.. but erm still from the same place lei.. so scary... dunno will end up the same or nt lei.. haiz.. anyway.. he very friendly.. hehe he tok to mi like we know each other for a while le.. haha.. but still .. jia you.. hehe..

b4 i end.. WAH... ang mo come in n play games lei.. omg.. they so cute... hehe.. esp the leader.. haha.. he is my type lei.. then so so so cute lei.. hehe.. actually.. hehe ok la.. wah their english very chim.. hehe.. no matter wat they say i keep smiling lor.. hehe.. XIN AI use to do this too.. haha..

so tire... hehe guess wat.. i did a new dough for cafe le.. haha.. hey guys.. come.. lets play.. our fav. clay mania.. haha.. hehe cos i use the orange colourings... my father tot its orange lei.. haha.. anyway.. hehe.. praying hard for tml................................................................nite

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:42 AM

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weeeeeee... here comes monday.. its another week le.. haha.. my off day again!!! staying at home.. feeling so so so bored.. haiz.. it has been a long week for mi.. n the week r so so so busy la.. anyway..

had been thinking quite a lot during the week.. had been talking about it too... but no matter wat is the outcome... i had aready had an ans in mind le..

on fri i played many many rounds of lost cities with robin.. haha so fun.. it brought mi back to the time when xin ai n mi were so cling to this game.. these memories jusr fill my mind when i see that game..

working hard is for the sake of money, stressing n pushing is also for money, in order to bring wealth is also money.. wat about happiness then? money?

i hate wat i m doing now.. i hate myself.. i dislike the way i display myself.. y izzit so hard for mi to get love my others? y cant i feel love at all? y is my life always so dull n boring.. where is my happiness? where is my love..

i can wait.. but not time.......

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 10:56 PM

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recently was very busy because of work.. i hardly gt my own time.. but still i keep myself happy most of the time..

din really gt anything to say le.. cos i just wanna be happy n forget about other things.. i just think that things aint going in rite n fair way ba.. anyway.. hehe i feel so happy working.. cos... i can tok to the customers.. esp when i saw many repeated customers.. who actually remember mi.. n they say hi to ME... hehe so so so happy lei..

but today the most funny thing is the scene cos my mi yee wei n wai yin.. haha.. cos i over take in a table at 1030.. haha.. then who knows the customers now all so on time lei.. hehe then so i gt yee wei to entertain the customers by introducting all the packages to them.. haha.. she done a good job in sustaining the customers.. hehe.. then she all intro the games i think.. then i quickly settle the bill the the table first and then wai yin clear the table.. everything was so rush la.. cos the customer actually came at 9 n was ask to come back at 1030 but i could onli give them a table at 11.. haha.. then we do things very fast.. tot it was ok le.. so gt yee wei to bring the customers to sit.. WHO KNOWS haha.. the table cloth is still on the table.. haha.. so funny.. the yee wei gt to go take it up.. n the customers was like looking at her hehe..

anyway.. all of us work like octopus again!!!! but thanks all for ur effort.. i love u all..
muack

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 1:27 PM

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pass two days was working.. thinking everything in a postitive manner and nt bordering so much do help haha..

i feel so so so much happier now.. hehe yesterday, there is this group of male customers came in.. wah they really make my day wow.. they are all so funny ppl.. and u see the way they played jungle speed... wahahaaha... so cute.. hehe

But today is so so so quiet.. oh.. i feel so excited when my first table came in at 2!! but then.. no more.. i m so bore.. n feel sad i onli earn like one fifth of the target today.. :(

oh my god.. robin crack jokes TODAY!!! haha.. he look so much better la.. maybe cos he saw pretty gers in holland v......... izzit mi?? haha.. anyway ya... hope he can keep it that way!!! i'll love to see him then haha.. oh! he look gd in his suit too hehe..

arg... i m working everyday this week!!! except monday.. haha.. feels tire.. but in order nt for mi to drink water next month... i gt to do it.. yea

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:52 AM

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pass two days was working.. thinking everything in a postitive manner and nt bordering so much do help haha..

i feel so so so much happier now.. hehe yesterday, there is this group of male customers came in.. wah they really make my day wow.. they are all so funny ppl.. and u see the way they played jungle speed... wahahaaha... so cute.. hehe

But today is so so so quiet.. oh.. i feel so excited when my first table came in at 2!! but then.. no more.. i m so bore.. n feel sad i onli earn like one fifth of the target today.. :(

oh my god.. robin crack jokes TODAY!!! haha.. he look so much better la.. maybe cos he saw pretty gers in holland v......... izzit mi?? haha.. anyway ya... hope he can keep it that way!!! i'll love to see him then haha.. oh! he look gd in his suit too hehe..

arg... i m working everyday this week!!! except monday.. haha.. feels tire.. but in order nt for mi to drink water next month... i gt to do it.. yea

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:52 AM

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today.. is different.. i guess i had my mind set of wat is going on le..

i guess from where i had stop... or rather start... i should either start or give it a end.. n start a brand new one!!!

was in cafe playing games today.. siting beside him.. i feels his coldness.. oh.. pls dun be like that.. i know u r warm inside.. hehe therefore..............

NOW i shall not border anymore.. shall just think POSITIVE!!! yeah.. stay happy then my MR RITE might come out haha.... no la.. i guess its true i will be happier in the way...

yeah!!!! watever is ours it will always be... however if it nt ours... it will nv be..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:19 AM

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today i drag to wake up.. cos i was too tire.. haha slept for onli like 4 hours.. then went to work.. wahahaha.. is ONE MAN SHOW.. no la actually it was suppose to be cos no one can work.. therefore our wonderful doreen.. n kindhearted robin came down to help.. wei ppl gt appointment lei.. cancel just to come n help.. thanks.. was touch.. :-)

still haha.. i run up n down the stairs n my face was like as red as an apple i think haha.. sunddenly i think the stairs in cafe was so long hehe.. hehe cos it will take mi as least 4 to 5 seconds to get up there.. haha.. was busy ok.. was full house.. hehe.. anyway.. i still enjoy my day cos wow the customers today all very nice.. hehe all i like.. hehe.. also i saw my suai ge again lei.. haha... wowho.. hehe..

ya cos i was overly tire.. my back feel the strain there cos i was nt working like so many days together.. furthermore it was VERY VERY BUSY day with LITTLE MANPOWER!!!!!!!!!!!!! ya so asked robin to take over.. n once again.. he cancel his appointment.. was touch the second time haha... thanks.. ( big hug) hehe.. AGAIN AGAIN.. hehe watever.. teletubbies is back again.. haha

my yellow teletubbies is DIRTY.. all thanks to the little monsters haha.. BUT dunno he so nice later will revenge or nt lei.. hehe kidding..

was chatting with mabel then gt conference with doreen haha.. so cool.. so long since i last chatted on the phone man.. wah.. think i m losing all this little interest in life man.. where r u my MR RITE.. i m right here waiting for u lei.. muack!! wow..

looking forward for the shopping trip tml yeah!!! hehe

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 11:06 AM

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haha..................................... i make a joke today again wah seh.. i was teaching games.. n.... haha my saliva fly out of my mouth n land on one of the customers NOSE.. hehe.. but luckly she is so so so nice nt to be angry.. hehe.. think i should wear a mask next time.. hehe.. after a hard day at work.. i try to crack joke for them to laugh but i guess all of them r a bit too tire to laugh le.. hehe.. anyway another day passed.. once again we had overcome.. yeah!!!!!

NOW, time is morning 4:20 on sunday.. i couldnt slp.. cos all the unhappiness n why n UNFAIR is running in my mind.. i guess maybe this is my life.. fill with torture n unlove..

i know the more i say the irritated i feel towards myself.. who will wanna hear all this bad things again n again.. therefore i choose to keep quiet le.. BUT my sense of guilty is telling mi that wrong .. NO WAY.. however wat can I DO????????????

just received mabel's sms at 4:13am about tml n telling mi that she cant come down cos her husband dun allow.. but that her business wow.. just feel that something he is a bit selfish.. i actually wanted to tell her how i feel.. how sad n angry i was.. not with her.. but with SOMEONE else n also cos of working.. but i still NEVER cos.. i think is unncessary la.. she gt her own problem too.. i guess..

with that SOMEONE.. i guess all of u will know.. i onli had something to say.. i ALWAYS believe that ACTIONs speak louder then WORDS.. so dun try to be funny in front of mi.. WARNING: dun wan into the same path as xxxx.. i tell u it hurts n u might nv come back.. i can respect u like how i respect the other staff if u can show mi u can do it too.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

was really busy today.. cos of that target! we gt no choice but to take in tables no meh??? making everyone work like slaves.. cos we hav short of 2 staff!!!! y m i working so hard? y m i doing so much? for bonus? for incentive? NO!!! if i was to work for all this.. i would hav left the job long long time ago.. still bcos of passion??? HAHA.. i dunno le.. working so hard is to pay back the kindness of the knowledge n skills i learn.. but who can understand!!!!! who else is as stupid as ME??? ya true i work cos i wanna money too.. but come true from start till now!! did i ever say any thing or do anything BAD.. or just for the sake of MONEY??? i just wanted it gd no meh.. m i wrong doing that.. so wat.. i demand a pay increase.. i demand more benefits.. i want fairness..

working mad like june again.. but i can understand cos its exam time.. but thank god i hav u.. thanks henry for ur help n effort.. thanks yee wei.. i know u r tire.. i know u did well.. thanks doreen for staying just to help out.. cos u know we r really short of ppl.. thanks wei ming for still working full today although u r having exam on monday.. thanks aunty for being so understanding n stay till 1030 to help us.. thanks thanks thanks... u all r the best ur did a great job.. without u all.. i dun think i can SURVIVE through..

hey SOMEONE<< have i given u the ans??? dun sms doreen sms mi instead!!! 91776908.. see wat kind of ans i will give u.. dun waste ur sms n our sms.. GOT IT..

haiz.. now is 4:45am.. still unable to slp.. guess i m hurt..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 1:15 PM

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i m free... free from sch!!! i finish my exAms yeah!!! so happy.. but haha guess din really do well cos dun really know whats going on hehe.. anyway.. hurray..

i feel dame tire now.. haha.. but MONEY sake.. i shall hang on hehe.. its changing.. changing so fast that i cannot really adapt to it le.. haiz.. MONEY MONEY MONEY is wat all of us is looking for now.. if MONEY is so so so important.. then wat is the point of ask for CS?? with stress n unhappiness or sense of ownership.. do things goes well??? no way!!! GO AWAY.. i wont let u hurt all my fren in this way.. i will hang on till the very last breathe..

hehe was quite happy today cos saw some repeat customers and they SMILED at mi... hehe i shy.. but still i attended to their tables.. hehe hope they enjoyed themselves.. hehe.. hey ppl.. i m back!! haha.. back to where i belong.. back to give my best service with my FRENS.. haha.. anyways... haha i make mistakes again.. hehe.. so pai sei.. but still.. hhahaha.. dunno.. hehe

very tire dunno wat to say.. ya.. ya.. ya.. hehe

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 12:11 PM

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paper tml, feeling lost.. giving up.. hopefully i can just pass.. dunno la.. was staying home for the who 3 days.. haiz.. so boring.. yet i was unable to concentrate to study.. i din really study at all.. instead i was eating n slping all the way.. i feel so sad n tire this 3 days.. why? stress? cos alone at home in the afternoon make mi anyhow think? i dunno too.. anyway it will be over in about 14 hours time.. hehe.. so ya.. i guess maybe i m nt suitable to study??? who knows..

thinking of wat should i do during this holiday here.. i gt 2 months wow.. other then work should i go take up driving? or should i go on diet.. haiz.. was talking to them just now.. i told them i wanna go on diet.. pls pls pls.. i know myself best.. cos i m too use to this lifestyle le.. my heart wanna change but my mind stop mi.. i need ppl to help.. i need ppl to force mi, to watch over mi, to pull mi along cos i alone i will nt want to do it, i need ur to stress it on mi.. i need the help n care from all of u.. cos i cant do it.. if nt i will nt fail so many times le.. i feel so useless wow.. esp when he kept saying he wans mi to slim down cos of my health but in fact.. he look down on ME.. where r u my saviour.. where r u ppl.. i need a change to lead a better life.. HELP ME PLS<<<<
they will nv understand how i feel.. they can nv understand the hurt i m going through.. all this 20 yrs of life.. although this hurt n sadness is kept since secondary school.. BUT its coming back?? its still hurt from the very bottom i guess which little things happen..

maybe that my life.. of always being background of everything.. ppl come n go.. who could really stay n help.. no one.. onli stupid ppl will always support others just like mi..

no more tears no more hurt.. get lost.. u this stupid ger.. its time for ME to stand out NOW

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:26 AM

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haiz.. cannot imagine the following days to be at home.. wah so so so boring wow.. maybe cos too long nv been home for so long.. nv have been resting for so so so much.. today was a day of slp.. i slept almost the whole day wow.. no mood to study.. haiz.. i hated this module lei.. heard that next sem. still hav wow.. oh no.. will faint man.. hehe..

suddenly think that the exam date is so near wow.. it on fri.. meaning 2 days later wow.. arh.. haiz.. what can i do.. wat should i do.. just came concentrate at home.. oh no.. think i should go mac study.. but go there also later keep eating lei.. i no money le wow.. hehe..

I WILL SURVIVE hehe.. tml is another day at home.. :(

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:22 AM

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wow wow wow... wat a wonderful day.. with wonderful ppl.. ur make my day.. hehe.. with my project which has ended.. exam coming soon.. today is a memorable day.. hehe.. time now 10:55pm 14/8/06.. its li hui's birthday too!!! haha..

i woke up very early today just to go sch hand in the assignment!! wow.. well done mandy well done everyone we did it.. hehe.. then i went home to bath n went for REBONDING.. hehe n i actually also dye my hair but is dark brown so cannot see the different haha.. like waste money cos it nt very gd i guess cos they all say nt nice.. but at least i get to make my hair look neater didnt i? hehe

but i was like rushing for time la.. finish just nice at 330 for the movie "my super ex gf" hehe.. but i miss the first 5 minutes.. guess i watch with who??? ah hal.. its the little ger MINGSI.. hehe.. think is our first time watching movie together lei.. haha.. 2 person onli hor romantic ma.. anyway she watch movie haha so cute n funny.. i tot i very serious in watching movie cos i dun really eat n drink also dun really tok.. but she even worst then mi lei.. she nv move too.. funny part she also like nv laugh lei.. erm haha.. next time better ask 3 person hehe.. kidding la.. its gd.. we both concentrated in the movie n now we both can tell u the whole story.. or u need us to act it out for u??? hehe

then we went was thinking wat to get for hui ge.. hehe therefore in the end we gt a card.. see we r modern ppl dun gt a birthday card le.. we get a happy teachers day card to modify hehe... but still cos we think he is like a teacher to us lor.. hehe.. cos the card is a bit last minute therefore it is a simple one.. but but but we went for dinner.. the cck satay n chicken wings.. wow so so so nice lei.. haha.. we had a great time hehe..

i was so happy yet i cry le when i reach home.. suddenly i feel so touch n sad.. y u need to remind mi again.. its her again MINGSI.. i read the letter she give mi.. although its nt for mi ONLY but but but still thanks a lot.. i will miss u n i love u too.. hehe.. u r great too..

u all r great ppl.. love ya.. muack..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:56 AM

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wah was very tire today cos last nite reach home.. do touch up for my project then wah it was like 5am in the morning.. went to slp.. dunno y maybe my because my body clock is set to wake up at nine le.. therefore today i woke up at nite but my eyes was too tire to open up.. haha.. anyway.. i force myself to wake up n gt going with my printing of project.. who knows thing happen.. no ink furthermore my sister com the format is different cannot print certain file.. so gt to ask for help.. thanks mabel..

when i reach cafe.. wah the atmosphere very tense n quite.. today is my first time working with him.. erm dunno izzit always like that but anyway..hehe.. after sometime.. think he is still okie la... hehe.. if he can be a little more crazy with us.. smile a little more.. tell mi more abt his embrasses moment, things will be better i guess.. haha.. anyway.. ya.. who doesnt hav moments that will remember for life??? i gt a lot.. esp.. when i just started working in cafe.. haha.. MABEL the person who gives me the motivation to strive.. nt praises BUT SCARY SCOLDINGS haha.. esp the frothing, the order sheet.. so ya.. i was about to share all this with him.. but i nv cos some how or rather i think its unnecessary.. guess this come to show that no one is perfect or gifted.. it all comes with motivation n hardwork!!!

went dinner with my sister just now..so so nice.. this kind of chances is hard to get.. esp with my family situation.. ya.. we went shopping.. n haha i bought the 1GB memory card.. wow.. so happy.. so ppl if u gt songs.. send to mi now!!! haha.. so tire.. tml gt to wake up early to hand in project.. okok muack..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:09 AM

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today went back to childcare to settle last bit of my things.. was so excited n happy to go yea!! dunno y.. first time.. maybe cos last day le.. feel sad ba.. when i reach there.. i went to tok to my mentor miss sharon.. she say i did well still okie but much look into some of the things too.. so ya need to be improve n need more experience.. she wans me to continue in this line cos she say all the children need US!!! wow.. i was so so so touch.. first time i feel so proud of myself n feel so appreciated!! hehe.. she is dame nice la although she was a bit blur blur type haha.. anyway.. i see the children my heart sink.. they all came to hug mi when they see me.. really feel so so so nice.. i will MISS them for sure.. anyway thanks to all the teachers there n miss sharon.. its really lovely to be there overall.. haha.. NOW its over.. n getting back to study that hard module.. the wat leadership thingy.. wah.. sian.. yea!! motivation is wat i need now haha!!!

therefore i went to buy a phone to pamper myself cos no one pamper mi ma hehe.. i gt N73.. oh i really like the phone.. although something my finger might press 2 button together haaha.. or still nt too use to switch back to nokia after using samsung for so so long.. haha.. its gd!!! haha I will be faithful haha.. i guess hehe.. anyway it cos big big money n now i m onli left with little bit to survive for this month after my rebonding too.. oh.. sunddenly i feel so lack of $$$ but but i had nv regretted buying cos.. think back i still prefer nokia phone haha..

haiz.. guess can stay at home .. no more spend this month.. haha.. stay at home to play my phone hehe... erm.. haha.. gd for mi too.. on diet then.. drink water n eat bread!! hehe

okok.. gtg to rest or play with my new baby.. haha.. tml is another long day.. hehe.. muack..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:06 AM

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today was my last day in childcare.. oh.. when i first reach there i feel a sense of sadness wow.. had been there for like a month more le.. really gt some feelings for the place n the children too although, sometimes they seems annoying but still i love them.. having said... i really she bu de.. but still it was the last day le.. who knows.. or i will drop by just to see them?? hehe.. anyway i bought lots of things for them.. n miss sharon n the teachers there to share too.. they really help mi n taught mi alot.. really wan to thanks them..

i love the kids i love u all.. haha

i read one of my frens blog just now.. oh gosh.. the cheerful her.. also had her so much problem n worries... i m worried for her.. of cos i think i gt no rite to say anything cos i also facing the same problem.. also i guess i m nt as gd ba.. but still.. ger just wan u to know.. we all love u.. will be by ur side okok.. i m always there for u hehe..

oh no.. i m going to spend alot of money now.. oh pls.. let mi earn it back asap ba.. i wanna be strong n nt tire.. i wanna work hard now!!!!! control!!!! hehe
jia you jia you

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 5:03 AM

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a meaningless national day is spend just like that.. working whole day.. but at least.. gt mike wai yin n henry accompany it doesnt seem so dull.. anyway nothing much to say cos see through le.. life is just like that.. wif ppl who will nv understand.. with leopard that will nv changes its spot.. with ppl that is 0% in responsibility.. haiz..

some ppl just dun feel guilty doing this that r bad.. but luckly i m nt like that.. really thank god for still keeping mi safe n with gd values.. therefore still i will continue to do wat i m supposed to!!! cos i my job..

surprisingly today was nt as busy.. haha but still.. we did ok i think haha.. anyway.. new menu, new shift very confusing... everyone is making mistake here n there.. even myself i guess haha.. still trying to adapt ba..

wow wow wow.. cafe gt new table.. so cool!!! can seat as a 2 table it can also join to become one.. then the table can fold n open.. can seat 2, 4 or even 8ppl... wonderful??? haha but open till 8 ppl one also dunno gt space ma.. they nv think for as ar.. esp mi.. no space to walk lei.. then i m constrain in level one only wo.. haha.. anyway.. gd lor.. more tables can earn more more more.. that tat's wat that who wanted ma.. rite..

guess wat.. i gt a fan, hand phone touch light, ndp bag, cap with singapore flag.. with light some more, a batch.. haha so gd rite.. mummy went to see the ndp.. cos gt many tickets.. wow.. see i so clever rite.. nv go there squeeze n all can get all this le.. haha.. nt bad lei.. hehe..

anyway happy national day to all.. although now is like 1 am le.. haha.. still happy belated birthday singapore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we r singapore, singaporean.... stand up for singapore!! do the best we can!!!!!!!!!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:20 AM

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yesterday which was sat.. was really a long long day for mi.. haha.. maybe cos i slept very late on fri nite.. sat was such a tire n long day for mi.. esp till 12am.. i was like stoning n my eye lid feels so so so heavy le worst thing is.. i make a few embrassing moment man.. so funny..haha.. but still manage to pull through.. hehe.. the thing that shock my life was.. it was quite quiet.. although we r short of man power but still we din do till we cannot catch our breathe wow.. hehe.. so ya.. but still was manage to reach a certain amount..

then we had supper!!! once again.. haha.. it was so fun.. although it was somehow with another group like henry n mike.. we enjoy ourselves n most important it was wai yin Bday.. hehe.. she was being trick by mike twice haha.. so cute lei.. i really like this kinda feeling.. it really make it feels like home.. but how come it can onli be found in certain ppl? what about the others lei???

was sleeping with YW on the same bed again.. haha.. the feeling of having her beside mi so different.. so nice.. although last time i longing to have a room to myself.. but now.. cos my house aready very quiet n therefore.. the feeling of loneliness came.. i really enjoy their stay over.. although it always causes mi to lose my slp.. haha.. we chat.. n she is really a very gd fren which ppl should understand n treasure.. (those who nv treasure her R ki SIAO ppl..heartless) anyway.. ya.. although we onli see each other like once a week.. but hehe her lame jokes n cute face do make mi miss it alot haha..

hippy!!!! we went k lunch today!!! i mean sunday.. haha.. the food was ok la.. hehe.. actually i will prefer the fish haha.. cos i dun really like breast chicken meat.. anyway.. wai yin came n we sang happy birthday song for her too.. wah!!! din know a birthday song is nt easy to sing too wow.. haha.. we all were shock.. but still we finish the whole song.. hehe.. we took pictures.. will should u all other time if i gt the chance.. hehe..so fun.. YW.. even singing she also wanna make us laugh.. wah she can go huan le dian feng lei.. haha.. she sing sad song really very sad.. sing male part really very funny lei .. esp the ming ming bai bai wo de xin.. haha..

coming back its now 2am in the morning.. think this month is another month of my life man.. can xxx wow.. haiya.. how come always like that.. anyway i m super tire le.. still gt to rush the fp evaluation.. so gtg.. see ya soon!!! muack!! should i dye black or dark brown? with a very light highlight? hehe?????????????????????

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 10:47 AM

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m i really that stupid??? was asking myself this question on my way back!!!! i m feeling so down n tire now.. yah.. ppl r all different.. different in size, thinking, way of doing things n all..

i woke up at 6AM n went to the childcare at 7!!! oh.. n the day there is not easy.. because there is this person coming to see the centre.. everyone is busy.. therefore.. today seems so hard to pass.. cos so many things happen in the centre.. also cos joyce is nt there to tok to mi ba.. hehe.. in the morning.. gt to ask the children to pack up the toys.. which they will onli listen when the teachers stand there n stare at them.. then alicia went to play.. the best part is she vomit n need to be wash up.. the children simply just dun understand what we r saying .. but still i love them cos they r so so so cute at time haha..

then i m really very tire le.. a day in childcare.. u guess can nv imagine untill u experience it urself!! esp with the toddler n playgroup.. all the energy is drain out.. therefore i really dun feel like work de.. but still i went cos thinking of they r short of staff.. i could hav just reject n leave them to die there like wat xxxx did.. but still i din.. anyway.. tml is another long day.. which i hope it would be better..

i start to agree on wat some one had told mi.. i feel so sian n piss till i choose nt to ask anymore.. i choose not to care too.. n i choose nt to be involve.. will i come to a point where i will onli do wat i m suppose to??

someone ask mi.. y do u wanna to stay on or go to work in a place where the salary is nt high.. i told him cos that my interest n i like it!! PASSION.. then he say.. true but nowaday the expenses in singapore i getting higher n higher so we must look for job with high pay.. but i wan something i like n the salary can support mi through i will be more then happy le.. but wat happen if this passion has cos so much things to show its true colour.. is that wat i wanted to see n know too???

the best of today is .. when i over heard a phrase.. i was like.. hated it... i can no longer smile.. therefore i choose to leave.. choose to stay away.. n most important i choose to stop being a FOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love michelle n rui jie.. so so so cute.. muack!!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 10:59 AM

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hey hey hey ppl... waiting for this day was like so so so long la.. finally my assessment is over.. after a delay of 2 weeks!!! but but but i din do very well.. maybe cos it being delay for so long.. i was dame nervous n tire n stress n hungry today la.. therefore i merely just pass i guess.. cos the lecturer say i din interact alot with the children.. din play with them, din really smile at them.. haiz.. but she say i very gd at praising the child for doing good, gt lesson, great materials.. she can see the great effort i put in for the all the things.. so i PASS .. but but but really gt to interact and play with them... i really wanted to thanks miss sharon for all her encouragement n guildance.. joyce teacher lay hoon n hong lao shi.. thanks for all their support.. n friend ur jia you.. hehe..

cos its over.. i feel so much relief.. i went pizza with joyce.. so nice.. really glad to know her as her fren cos she really help mi alot.. then we go walk walk n i bought a vaccum cleaner.. haha to clean my room..














hehe.. i going rebond my hair soon.. ppl the pretty ger is coming back okok.. hehe.. haha.. anyway.. ya this is the day..

as for my past days.. i was busy like hell doing all my stuff for this attachment n ALSO the things for mingsi cos she is leaving us.. really feel sad.. cos we had grow to be quite close i can say.. n now she is leaving us.. really wanna gives her the memories.. make a video n card for her..
but actually i was piss.. cos... bla bla bla its ok anyway its over.. all the best mingsi

sian i promise wanting for her birthday present is to slim down.. but i fail.. think i should have promise her i will start on her birthday itself haha.. but anyway.. wanting.. thanks for always wanting to help mi along.. muack!!!

ok gtg to do other stuff le.. will catch up soon!!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 5:50 AM

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