was a bad day on this day.. not enough slp.. woke up very early for breakfast.. but things were still fine till later on..

my mood totally changes n falls.. when some things which is happening that make mi somehow irritated.. bad timing n irresponsible stuff.. make me n all in a mess..

i wanted to say sorry for all.. cos i really dun feel well..

sometime really feel like a fool... n some ppl r always trying to be funny.. now i know, why r there so many similarities le.. cos ........from the same place.. i guess..

not all r bad.. at evening.. when i gt to cool myself a bit down with mike lame jokes haha.. we r working as usual.. so fun.. the night seem quiet but many tables.. guess cos nice n kind hearted ppl know we r all tire.. therefore.. planned it in this way to let us feel more relax ba.. hehe.. or m i the onli one? ops... hehe..

xinai n all came today to play.. wow she become so so so pretty le wow.. going clubbing lei this ger.. haiz.. look at mi.. still a o-ba-san hehe.. so o-biang..
but so fun... see her.. really make mi feel happy.. haha.. as usual tat huo guang.. he chuang huo again haha.. he took the games and then all fall out haha.. make a mess hehe..

as usual.. we had supper.. oh no.. i think i getting fatter le.. tat YW la buy fried rice for mi!!! she is trying to make mi look more like her? or izzit she scare is going to reach my stage therefore trying to push mi go alot more forward first? wahaha..

so tire.. oh a new week!! my nervous week.. a sun that seems so short..
miss u all.. muack

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 11:18 PM

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hey hey hey.. i feel so excited in the morning thinking that i m going to sch.. BUT oh my god.. its was so so so tiring.. when we first reach there i gt stomach ache.. oh my therefore for not letting the teacher know.. haha i pai sei i ask the teachers whether the children wanna go toilet pass urine not haha.. then yea some wanted so i went to SHIT.. haha..

then we walk in.. then shock of my life.. they are not going to take the train.. oh my god.. then we walked all the way.. wah sian.. it was so tire.. i got four children under my care.. wah they ar.. all so hard to take care.. some walk slow.. some likes to wonder off.. haha.. therefore.. by the time i reach the place to see the animals, the teacher in front already walked away haha.. so funny.. sian cannot see anything at all.. haha..

but i gt some pictures to share with ur haha so fun.. onli 1!!! haha











this is my fav. child.. cute rite.. she is very quite.. BUT she ar very violent like mi.. same type lei hehe.. haha














can see how tire i m ma.. see wah!!!











then went to work.. haha so tire.. who body aching.. walking under the hot sun for ONE and a HALF HOUR WOW!!! heat stroke.. n sun burn.. wah.. look like mang ga li..haha

wow today is busy but nt as busy as sat haha.. yeah!! i feel a bit bad in certain ways but haha.. i still cannot get over with it.. i guess.. then drink a 40% wine.. BUT no feeling lei.. think they lie.. is onli 0.4% ba haha.. then went for supper.. haha so funny gt "N" to come along.. they all so funny esp.. YW.. i think she more suitable for him haah..i will.. haha...

oh my now is 430am in the morning saturday i still haven slp!!! oh no tml still gt a long day to go..think i will be like zombies haha..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 12:56 PM

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yesterday was a terrible day.. so many things happen together make mi feel so lost.. hehe but still things are always better afterall.. must always believe that there will be someone watching over us.. to keep us safe from unwanted things..

at the being of the childcare.. still fine.. but once after tea time, one of the toddler's hand id hurt by the door, oh its really a scary moment.. blood starts to bleed and everyone starts to panic.. i was then left alone in the room with the rest of the kids.. WAH that all my headache comes.. all the children started running n screaming and then i couldnt stop them from doing that.. i shout.. n scold.. but still no use.. i feel so helpless n tire.. sick if them.. haiz.. but then things get a bit more settled down.. i conducted my lesson in a mess.. haha but but but the children love the ice cream we make.. haha wow..

then went k box with ming si n doreen.. hehe so fun.. although onli 3 of us.. but still i love it.. haha i sang many songs lei.. old new.. hehe.. so happy.. realise ming si sings song not bad lei hehe.. thanks all..

wah today i feel so tire.. hehe was suppose to reach the childcare at 8 but in the end i reach onli at 10 haha.. cos too tire to wake up.. but ok la.. everything was ok.. but still the children very naughty lei.. they just cannot listen n sit down.. haha..

really tire n my whole body aches.. haha.. wow tml i going to ZOO with them lei.. will keep ur update.. n take picutres haha.. also OH i working at settlers tml.. hmm... ok i CAN do it!!! jia you..

go go go.. muack

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 5:01 AM

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wah today i feel so tire.. oh my.. feel like fainting haha.. so nervous cos assessment coming.. brought all my stuff to sch n do in class.. hehe seem so busy hal... hehe..

BUT when i reach home.. wah biang.. the supervisor call mi n say change next week.. OH my nightmare is going to last for another week hehe.. then i last minute wanna conduct my lesson tml.. but like so rush.. like everything also haven prepare finish wow.. hehe so funny lei.. like i will nv finish like that..

wow..wow..wow.. the Channel 55 show so nice.. the qing mi hei sheng lin... so touching lei.. but today the ending so funny.. the ger up until so ugly hehe.. but so sweet haha.. i wish i also can.. WAIT is the guy just on mi to hug mi? haah ahahahaha

guess wat.. i was chatting to.... ALEX... dunno y he just give mi a feeling of he dun understand certain things like we r onli frens now.. but still dunno y.. he continue to affect my mood n life.. maybe cos .... i dunno lei.. he just did lor.. oh but he hum mi the goodnite song.. i think very gd le.. but his attitude still the same.. n the bad thing is our conversation gt a lot of pauses which both of us kept quite.. i really hope to keep the conversation going but u know trying to be as enthu as possible although i m nt at all in my heart but.. ya.. dun wan any of us to feel sad.. dun wan him to get stress or frastated my mi again!!!

its mid nite le.. its still a long day ahead.. Thanks ALEX..

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:26 AM

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had been spending my day doing the stuff for my attachment hoping to get over n had.. but still feeling so so so nervous.. still gt thousand of things to complete.. oh no.. any one there to help mi??? hehe..

went to see my grandmother yesterday cos i m not working.. went with my parents elise n evan n nana.. was still fine.. i suddenly realise that my grandmother was really old le.. n she look so tire n sick.. AH MA.. jia you.. i love u always..

went we going home.. think was still fine till............... i hate him! so bias.. y onli elise n evan can gt love from father mother grandfather grandmother.. n yet not ME??? wat elise n evan wan he also give.. every sat n sun also bring them so out, go swimming, go see aeroplane.. but when i onli ask her to drive us to buy some breakfast for tml.. he scolded mi..!!!!!!!!! when do i get all this when i m young?? wat i can remember is onli.. HE HAS A xxxxxxxx...... n all the memories i had with him is onli his black face.. n the cane which came onto mi when i did something wrong n when i showed him the report book!! such a bias person.. he will nv know how much i dislike this... wat a wonderful mum i gt too.. onli do things for them.. my family had become all very selfish le.. we onli do things for ourselves.. DUN BLAME mi .. ur do it first.. n that y i FOLLOW..

but luckly all my unhappiness is comfort my others.. my fren.. i love u all.. thanks for being there.. ur will nv know how much ur meant to be.. cos i m nt that kind of person who will call u just to tell u i miss n love u.. but in my heart.. u r the best u know.. just a little love given by ur.. can melts my heart le.. really feel gd when i know i m there in ur heart that u will think of mi.. wanna let u all know.. U ALL R THE BEST..

i always in believe in giving n getting back.. when i dun get to recieve after a long period of giving.. i will stop n that the end le.. n to mi i always believe that once fren always fren...

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 5:17 AM

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today is a long n moody day.. also an exciting day.. cos i m so shock that we dun really seems busy but we exceeded our target!!! yea!!

but still.. unhappy things always come along.. my tears rolled in front of u gers.. i feels so ashame.. but still.. i really cannot hold it anymore as it on the verge..

first thing in the morning gt to be maid again!!! wat the hell of working till so late n yet so much things nt done.. really wonder wat he is doing.. still remember one thing he say "ya ya i can leave five minute after last customers left" haha is one hour or 5 MINUTES!! say properly la.. n stop treat it as ur HOME.. ask ur fren to call ur water bottle phone la.. dunno get that phone for wat.. for show ar..

today was quite busy in the afternoon.. n aunty comment make mi feel something strong.. ya true.. wat r all this covering n all... i m also just a normal human.. they gt to learn.. they gt to strive.. they gt to do it one day..

my whole afternoon was working with an empty stomach with onli strawberry yogert in it.. but who cares? r ur able to survive if i were to leave? can i be so selfish? wat else can i ask for?
then a more shocking news or rather secret is known... at that point time.. my tears almost came rolling down but i still manage to hold it.. BUT.. y.. if dun like it can just ask to take it down.. dun make this kinda of remark..it hurts.. ( ask urself b4 u say something) !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if u think u can do something even better go ahead.. u really make mi feel XXX n XXXXXXX...
maybe wat i did is nt as gd as well know designers.. but its all my effort.. r ppl from the same XXXXXX all the same.. :( i really wondered!!!

sian.. earn so much in the end short of money.. gt to pay.. wat the point.. still cannot get over with this bad day of mine!!!! it such a long day..

but of cos there r also happy things like some customers whom really ease my pain.. their smile n a thank you really means alot n warm..

hey ppl.. thanks for being there.. thanks for ur care.. thanks for wat ur had done to make mi grow.. with u around really make a different.. thanks.. u gers r e best...

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 12:03 PM

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been sometime since i last blog.. hehe.. cos was very very busy this few days..
sat was a busy day.. n we did quite well for that day.. its was also a happy day.. haha.. maybe cos was with the few of them haha.. was wondering how i will be when ming si is nt around next month.. will miss her badly i guess.. haha..

had a great nite with yee wei.. she is really a good friend n sister i can say haha.. really enjoy being with her.. :)

sun i had fun too.. n guess wat.. i know how to make ice cream n dough.. ahaha.. was trying out in cafe.. the rest all like dun trust mi.. feel abit sad but still hehe.. I DID IT... wahahah.. then once again.. we played clay mania.. wahaha.. so fun.. yea! out team win.. gt ME mingsi yee wei hui ying n wai yin.. feels super high.. but gt a a bad feeling on the other side.. seeing it.. my hearts feels pain.. n hurt.. m i really into it?

on monday.. nothing special happens until the nite.. something hard strike mi!!! although it might seem nothing to others.. but.. my thinking n feelings r rite.. oh no.. (sound of breaking glass) n then i fall very sick le.. was MC on tue n wed.. thur went back to childcare.. nt fully recover.. but still.. the kids r there to make mi feel comfort.. went to Chuan Han gathering.. haha.. feels gd to be there.. but still a little nt myself i guess.. dunno maybe too tire or wat ba.. nt in the mood to enjoy.. but still happy to see all.. esp wanting.. hehe.. WT i love u haha..

today FRIDAY.. i was assess by my mentor.. oh.. she came late n guess wat she as mi to start all over again for my lesson.. sian.. the children gives attitude for second time.. then i feel like so lousy again.. but still manage to finish the lesson.. n the mentor gives quite gd remark in fact.. was surprise.. but still i think my mentor feel abit lost n like know nothing wow.. sian.. yea.. our kids r going ZOO next week!! i m so happy cos i m going too!! hurry! a place where i longing to go since 2 or 3 yrs ago haha.. oh no... now i m nervous about my assessment next week le.. haha..

oh ya one thing i need to add.. thanks for everyone who is there for mi.. esp when i m down.. i love u all.. i will SURVIVE!!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 4:03 AM

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everyone is unique.. everything got their own problem, thinking and the way we express ourselves.. but did we do it in the rite way??? sometimes there is alot of things which is nt within our control see.. but still people do try our best to achieve wat we all wanted or wished for..

ger.. jia you.. u know i always believe in losing then u will know how to treasure it.. n so.. dun afraid to lose cos if nt.. the mistake will repeat itself.. so ya.. i wont know wat will happen in the further but i m sure that both of u will know wat ur wan better yea.. (,")(",)
-- my blessing to u --

this week is a busy week for mi.. cos had been rushing all my school work.. hehe but but but.. i gt many gd helpers.. hehe.. that the gd point of having many gd fren.. hehe.. they help mi to colour!! hehe thanks gers.. u know who u all r.. muack.. esp YW n HY.. we onli know each other will nt more then 2 months i guess.. really feel so happy to know u 2.. esp YW.. muack.. i like u lei.. can i call u jie jie? or zhu jing? hehe..

oh my god.. ur know something.. they say i very fierce lei!!!!!!!!!!!! really ma? i scare lei.. later more n more ppl dun wanna work with mi le wow.. hehe.. they say when i work very fierce wow.. very serious lei.. haiyo.. hehe.. m i too fierce to u all? m i too demanding from u all? did i ask too much from ur? m i as cruel as that xxxx? ur feel stress working with mi???
oh fren.. all this is onli during work rite? hehe cos one after work or 12am u all know rite? i m the most friendly person, most funny person.. something most irritating n make u most embarasses rite??? hehe

having headache since wed till now.. hai dunno wat happen.. maybe too many thing le or dying soon?? so ur gt money must pass to mi i help ur spend k hehe..

i conducted my first lesson today.. muhahaha.. guess wat i feel like a ki siao!! i teach i acknowledge, i ask questions i ans myself.. haha.. best is my whole lesson is filled with crying n teacher i see him/her.. hehe.. but still i manage to complete my lesson hehe.. hoping next one will be better.. muhahaa..

tml is friday le.. so fast a week is going to pass.. oh my assessment is coming soon!! but holiday is coming soon too!! yeah!!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:58 AM

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+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:58 AM

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