hey ppl... i m back! yesh... wow its year 2007 le... haha... gotta think of my new goals for this year.... haha.. wanna hav a bf that really loves mi? hehe.... i wanna rest too!! haha...

i haven been blogging for half a month le.. haha but still hope that many many things is still in place haha... yesh! no worries.. my lappy is fine le.. n all the information is retrieve.. hmm all thanks to henry.. haha.. gd job..

erm i m so busy n tight up with my final year projects.. ya.. therefore i really had no extra time to update u all.. but just a brief one.. haha.. yeash....

first! i had a nice n terrible christmas.. haha.. i gt gifts from wanting! mel! and xia.. hehe... i love them all so nice.... n i went christmas dinner with mummy n na na... terrible is i played home alone haha.. cos my family went genting.. but nvm cos i work like hell... dunno what is day n night le ba... haha... n i will nv forget that man give mi ATTITUDE...

next is busy doing the event for the cafe with hui ying... although it is very tiring... but we had FUN haha.... n the event is successful ba i guess haha...

then yea i went movie with?...... haha wanting... really great finally i had time to seat down to watch movie haha...

lastly .... the new year count down! haha.. fun n nice.... although not as gd as last year.. but still it was fantastic.. haha.. thanks gers for being there....

a new year a new start... haha... think i must start writing diary too haha.. jia you...muack

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:51 AM

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this few days is like hell to mi.... esp yesterday....

i had been running here n there to get my things done... n then.. no one understand mi... i realise i really like so sad... cos of mi nt knowing how to approach to keep a fren... or so... i had no one around mi when i really needed one... i m lousy...

yesterday was the worst day of all.... first i finish childcare... went home n realise that my labby SPOIL.... n wat!!! all my data is lost! then i realise no one can help mi.. even my father dun wanna help mi... i cry like hell... who knows? i feel the lowest point who knowss? i like lost everything... i gt no MOOD for any single thing...

however, was able to bring it to the service centre... then realise it really spoil... n then i need to buy a disk drive.... n i found out that my pay is nt in yet!!! the check is write wrongly... oh my... how could all this thing happen together? but luckly i gt extra money....

childcare was fine at the beginning... n then... many things happened!.... i m so sorry... i think maybe cos i m nt a good leader ba... i m afraid of losingwat i really treasure.... i hate the feeling of losing.... someone or something... but NOW i m like lost all my memories...

haiz... bad day.. just like wat i read for my horoscope.. :(

m i suppose to continue to wait for u??!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:06 AM

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sat was a fun day too.... i enjoy myself haha... all started of which some nice customers... that make my day.. n i get to see familiar faces.. hehe.. so nice... n overall.... i think daniel is nice too haha...

sun is my RESTING DAY... hehe n i went to eat sushi buffet with ah na and wendy and brother in law... so nice... n guess wat... i onli eat one meal lor... haha... so full le haha... it last me through... was disappointed with his actions... but telling myself... i need to be understanding and i need to think in many perspective.. hehe...

today! monday.. went pam hse to do projects.. haha.. yea we manage to finish fast... n guess wat... pam cook for us lei... haha ... (maybe is her mum) HAHA... anyway.. thank ger...
then on the way back was caught in the stormy rain... in the end i went to lot one n shop... oh my god.. so many winnie the pooh stuff lei... i wanna buy lei... haha but dunno which to get.. cos all like so nice la... esp the big cusion which is a winnie pooh head.... haha...

celebrated birthday for ah na... onli mi ma ma n her... haha like so sad... but still i love u na na... jia you...hehe...
















she cutting cake....

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:43 AM

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today is such a busy day.... programmes were planned one after another with giving mi a break... however still i had FUN hehe..

started of with sch at 8am... wah so tire... then all the way till 1pm we to bukit timah celebrate yaya's birthday.. it was fun.. yea the food is nice too hehe..

then went to buy materials... n i was late for class.. haha

then gt meeting with mrs Koh... yea... but we gt to change my plan for our IEP... dunno y but seems like everyone is doing until very unhappy le ba... BUT we must strive on.. cos i believe we can do it...

THEN my best time.............. i went NIGHT SAFARI... haha so fun... yet so scary haha... the path so dark haha... like cannot expects wat is in front of u.. hehe.. we also went to the place where xin ai work... cool ar... nice environment haha.. i saw many animals like fishing cat, leapord, bat, flying squirrer, pig with horn n hair around the cheek, many more.. haha.. so cool then but too bad they cannot take pic.. cos its protected.. haha... I LOVE THE TRIP.. hehe.. had i great tok with xin ai huo guang n doreen too.. yeah!... some pics to share..














the food that i eat haha.. so nice














the FOUR of us!!!!

















one of the show.., haha... wah so nice lei...

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:41 AM

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presentation is over... yeah once again... a project down... BUT more to come wow haha...

these are my friends!!! and this pic is not taken on purpose haha...










i think i might be facing depression le.... cant seem to slp at nite... feeling like crying for nothing... feel lonely... no one care no one loves... i m suffering...

my mind just cant stop working.... y! WAT is happening to ME???

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 6:18 AM

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WEEEeeeeeeeeeeee....... finially the field trip of bring the children to the reefwalk is over.. yes! its successful wow... haha... so happy.. cos all the children sees something.. haha like sea snail, crab and seaweed etc... haha... the two boys i holding was so cute... haha.. they dun mind the dirty mud and they seems so enthu to look for different sea creatures haha... FUN GOOD... hehe









this is the place where we walk!!!!



N today!!!!! wat a sad day... maybe is the colour i wear haha...

today i over slept then like keep running to the toilet in the morning... then worst still i cant find my beautiful white skirt haha... then in the end i gt no choice cos too late.. i took the mini skirt (BLACK) with the black top cos i dun wanna think le.. BLACK jacket and bag and slippers too.. haha

lessons are boring... and i had no mood to do anything today i dunno y... cos HIM? haha
anyways... SHARK... :( i spoil hui ping's slippers during Gurmit lesson.. we went to the toilet then i wanna play with her... but i din realise that i step onto her slippers... next moment i know the slippers is spoil... OH MY GOD... i feel so bad, sad, guilty, n worry... HUI PING IS ANGRY!!! haha... but still she console mi.... but i still feel very bad n guilty... although she keeps saying nvm!!! it my fault ma... if i had not jump, slippers will not spoil...

then i went into class to borrow tape wanting to tape it back.. but cannot therefore i went to buy a pair of slippers for her... its ugly i know... she dun like i know... then the more i feel bad... hehe ger i m so SORRY!!!!






the SPOILED slipper!!!!









the ugly slipper i bought haha~~~~~!!!!




will i get to see u tonite? i wonder....

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 1:32 AM

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my life had been in a mass recently... i dun know y!? i myself also cannot figure wat i m really thinking... and i myself had now start to judge myself on capability, truth and my feelings...

this few days is not ask busy cos just finish 2 projects... however 2 more is half way through n i think about 3 more coming? ha... my life is full of nothing... but stress...

firstly, the childcare we choose had rejected us on changing the field trip from labrador park to changi beach... N well done! the committee of the volenteer group reject us too! haiz... at a point our IEP is in a crisis of going into all the arguments n all... however it was all over as wat mel says is rite... since i m the leader, the more i should support everyone... thanks to her.... n me? haha our group r working fine now... n i m so sorry but i really need to be alone at that point in time... cos i feel that everything is just so unfair... rite from the beginning...

not onli projects i think but everything!!!!!!!!!!!!

isit bcos i m fat so i dun have a choice to choose? isit cos i m soft spoken i m always at the losing end? is it that i m nt as interactive as others... i will not have someone to be by my side when i need it... is it that cos i had nothing.. therefore i need to act even stronger than anyone?

n that is y i hate going to crowded places, hate to join any parties... cos i hate the way the other look at mi!

today i went down to the family chalet... it was my first time going to this gathering after avoiding for one year... however similarly... same feeling of loneliness came back... n the feeling of love n care is ZERO... dislike ppl to say things to mi when they dun know anything.. yes!

so sad... maybe i m fated to be alone? maybe wat aunty judy says is rite... i had a bad life.... n i can nv had a man in my life... cos i dun know how to communicate... haiz how sad..
HE had not been toking to mi for 4 days le... so wat... he left with the wind?

anyways... tml is the field trip... ya.. was excited yet sad!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:05 AM

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