Happy new year to all... this year is pig year... so wish everyone xin xiang shi cheng....

it hasnt been a very gd new year for mi.... n ya TODAY ruin my new year....

on sat we had dinner together... it was great as all my family gathered together and we laugh n chatted as we eat... but i alway hate my father ATTITUDE of being so straight forward n never think of others feeling!!! he will onli think for that woman izzit? =(

first day of new year... went to 4 places to bai nien.. was tiring n fastrating cos that evan is so so so naughty that everyone was like asking "ur nv teach him ar?" wat can i ask? when they hav such a bias grandma n grandpa... n HACK CARE parents.... whose cares? when i tries to discipline, they sayang him... wat the point! it will onli make mi realise how much i mean to them....so tire that i doze off at 9 plus...(wow so early haha)

then second day worst! early in the morning everyone is unhappy le... esp that MAN.... wat the hell.. y cant he treat us nicer like how he treats that woman? becos everyone is late he showed us black faced! Oh my god.. that woman wants me to celebrate my 21st birthday at her place! kills mi man... luckily i book chalet le... i WILL NEVER! sopil my special day!!!
then when we reach my ah ma house... it was so hot n boring... i realise i start to dislike mixing around with this ppl...(aunty uncle n cousin) i gt nothing much to tok to them anymore maybe bcos i onli sees them once a year... then my second sister is late... make us waiting for the entire HOUR for her! then that MAN shows black face... not onli him everyone too! when we reach my dua kim place... my mum was super angry cos something happen just now that concern that stupid woman! n my mum was like saying "give him so much le.. still not enough ar... left haven divorce onli"- in my heart i was think divorce la... for wat.. hold on also not happy... y make urself feels like going into depression!!!!!!!!!! F**K him la.. then went back to my ah ma house.. played some of my game like GIZA n TAKE 6... erm think they dun really like ba.. ha... GAMBLING is wat they like.. went home with a tire n unhappy heart!

today... i dun feel like going my aunty house... but my sister keep asking mi to go... saying that they will hav to leave early... so in the end i went... we went to bai tai sui.. then went over... i feel so bore... the moment i heard her saying about MAHJONG!!! i knew it! over.... i hate ppl to lie... i hate ppl to say this do that... n i hate promises to be broken... in the end at about 9 plus they still playing mahjong! so i went off with na na... she thinks wat... hire more maids to look after her children when she play? when her ger finish class at 9PM they like gang chiong spider need to bring her home to drink milk n slp... y today no need ar? so special hor? i hate this big liars......... i swear that if i can! i will nv ever join any of this gathering again! i would rather go earn more more money!!!

i hate this new year.... i cried! i hated! i dislike it rite from the start.... suddenly i find living so hard so sad n no meaning! i really hope i can move out! stay somewhere else that i dun need to see them anymore! maybe with this i will feel more love towards them will feel better! i m feeling so so so down now... yes! i m such a failure!

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 7:12 AM

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