hey ppl.. it had been a long long time since i last blog yea... cos i need to sort out some feelings and thoughts... sorry for those who r worried for mi.. i m fine le... thanks all for the continuing support..

i rememeber once my cousin told mi.. GOD is always fair... if you hav something.. most likely u will hav short of something on the other hand... however.. he is onli fair to his ppl? he is onli communicate with his ppl? he is onli there for his ppl? wat about the others then... do we hav a GOD in our heart then? i do... the reason y i becomes so cheerful n treating things easily is because.. i believe in him too actually... dun be surprise... although i haven commit myself in!!! but... i believe in that line "GOD IS FAIR".... however i realise this faith is losing in mi... i realise it might nt be true anymore.. and its so nt fair to ME... izzit just bcos i nv tok to him? nv pray to him?

but now... watever he say will nt affect mi anymore.. bcos things r over... i m leading my own life my own way... hav ur heard of the story the boy who cried wolf? i will nv forget this story bcos... i once experience it b4... and therefore.. i hated myself for doing it... n now.. i hated ppl who do that too... esp to children.. nv make empty promises... dun make urself regret like mi!!!!

... 1. m i doing more then i m supposed to? 2. did i think of myself first?
3. wat benefits do i get if i were to do this? 4. m i treated fairly? <-------- this is the note which i hated to follow bcos its all include money n gd payback... then where is the love n loyalty? the leadership course through i remember something very clearly is that motivation in a persons job is nt onli money... it also comprise of achievements, n positive reinforcement like thank you, well done and all... so wat is short to continue to motivate mi then? get an ans?................. was reading one of my fren blog... haha wow.. many many admirers... wat about mi? NONE... haiz.. i was so confused now.. izzit that it came back? or i had nv let go of it? i need someone to dote mi... showered mi with love... so do i just accept anyone that comes? haha... maybe its time to give a change cos i m too tire to move on alone le... where r u.. come to mi now.. yes u MR RITE...

some annoy news in my family is pass over to mi again.. that woman.. say that we keep spending money.. nv say up... dun blame me for doing this i nv done.. that nt very nice tough.. so now.. i wanna earn more so that i can SUPPORT myself happy u.... btw its her that cause mi to hav a broken family.. n that the fact...

miss u wow... n restless

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 9:41 AM

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