paper tml, feeling lost.. giving up.. hopefully i can just pass.. dunno la.. was staying home for the who 3 days.. haiz.. so boring.. yet i was unable to concentrate to study.. i din really study at all.. instead i was eating n slping all the way.. i feel so sad n tire this 3 days.. why? stress? cos alone at home in the afternoon make mi anyhow think? i dunno too.. anyway it will be over in about 14 hours time.. hehe.. so ya.. i guess maybe i m nt suitable to study??? who knows..

thinking of wat should i do during this holiday here.. i gt 2 months wow.. other then work should i go take up driving? or should i go on diet.. haiz.. was talking to them just now.. i told them i wanna go on diet.. pls pls pls.. i know myself best.. cos i m too use to this lifestyle le.. my heart wanna change but my mind stop mi.. i need ppl to help.. i need ppl to force mi, to watch over mi, to pull mi along cos i alone i will nt want to do it, i need ur to stress it on mi.. i need the help n care from all of u.. cos i cant do it.. if nt i will nt fail so many times le.. i feel so useless wow.. esp when he kept saying he wans mi to slim down cos of my health but in fact.. he look down on ME.. where r u my saviour.. where r u ppl.. i need a change to lead a better life.. HELP ME PLS<<<<
they will nv understand how i feel.. they can nv understand the hurt i m going through.. all this 20 yrs of life.. although this hurt n sadness is kept since secondary school.. BUT its coming back?? its still hurt from the very bottom i guess which little things happen..

maybe that my life.. of always being background of everything.. ppl come n go.. who could really stay n help.. no one.. onli stupid ppl will always support others just like mi..

no more tears no more hurt.. get lost.. u this stupid ger.. its time for ME to stand out NOW

+ CuTiePiggIE @ 8:26 AM

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